This photo is the same evening as the Harvest Moon sunset…two nights ago.

It was a magical evening with soft layers of color in the fading day and a sharing of a new experience with Bear.

This night, I sit in the dark after a good work day, a day with time outside with Bear and with Bob, a day that had constant reminders of Karl…a day of mixed emotion.

I don’t know why some days have the difficult and sad come forth, while some have only the easy and happy and some, like today have a plethora of both.

Driving home this afternoon, from taking Bear to Wayfarer’s where we scoped out the camping situation (thinking of maybe an overnight or 2…) and had a wonderful walk, looked at the lake…I thought: I feel both the happiest and the saddest that I’ve felt in over a year. It is not a bad sad, it is a “missing Karl” sad, a “why did that dear dog have such a tough end?” sad…a sad with no answers in this earthly life, sad. And all the while I was also so happy with where Bear and I are and where Bob and Bear are and where we are as a family. Odd.

Then I looked at this photo…at the layers of color, the layers of mountains…and remembered taking Bear while remembering Karl. Mixed emotions at the end of the day.