{"id":13638,"date":"2013-10-13T19:13:30","date_gmt":"2013-10-14T01:13:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/beardogco.com\/theroadhome\/?p=13638"},"modified":"2013-10-13T19:13:30","modified_gmt":"2013-10-14T01:13:30","slug":"thinking-things-through","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beardogco.com\/theroadhome\/2013\/10\/thinking-things-through\/","title":{"rendered":"Thinking things through"},"content":{"rendered":"

This weekend has evaporated in pre-Winter chores, stomach rubs, cooking, walks and just sitting – outside with Bear or inside with Auggie. Although, inside with Auggie, is not so much sitting as it is playing\/running\/throwing crinkled paper…<\/p>\n

I’d love to have another weekend day. <\/p>\n

I’d always love to have another weekend day!<\/p>\n

But, as I sat and thought (generally outside with Bear) – not only did I love every single minute of this weekend, but I loved that I am able to work on my “to do” list as well as enjoy Bear and Auggie and cooking and everything else I chose to spend my time on.<\/p>\n

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When I was on my way to get Bear, after putting a deposit on a puppy, withdrawing, etc….someone wrote me something to the effect that “of course, I had thought things through.” This caused me to laugh because except for the mundane stuff of life, I don’t really think things through so much as go with my intuition or heart or just where the Universe seems to lead me.<\/p>\n

Bear was not easy but DEAR LORD, he is perfect for me. There were moments when I felt like I had done Bob ill – and I thought of trying to find Bob a home where he didn’t have to worry about a dog that didn’t know about cats. And there were moments when I felt it was too hard and then…the enlightening moment was a moment of “Maybe it will be like this until one of them passes”…and suddenly, I knew I could do that. I could love them both and live with the gates and the vigilance. From that point on, it was easy. And it got easier as ultimately we all came together.<\/p>\n

And Karl. If you’ve read this blog for long and\/or are friend or family that knows me, you know that Karl was so very dear to me. But Karl and I had some rough moments at the beginning of our time. Karl was mouthy – on me – on my arms. I looked like I had a young kitten!! Karl was not Zack, the dog I lost to lymphoma before getting Karl. It took some time and an enlightening moment that Karl was Karl, not Zack – to turn MY thinking around. And ultimately, we came together and had an extraordinary time together.<\/p>\n

One of my favorite of all time tv shows is a BBC series: “As Time Goes By”. I have 9 series on DVD and have watched them a LOT of times. One of my favorite lines is about thinking things through. The character Lionel, asks his Father and step-Mother if they’ve thought through something. Lionel’s father replies: “Oh, we can’t be thinking things through. That takes too much time!” I agree!!<\/p>\n

And more importantly, it is impossible to know what might happen or how we might feel. There is so little we really have control over.<\/p>\n

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Water getting into Wild Thing via a crack in the windshield – that I have some control over and I spent some time thinking about making things better over this winter…blocking the leak while also situating the tarp so that I can release it from the ground should we need to go quickly.<\/p>\n

Done.<\/p>\n

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The herbs.<\/p>\n

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Keeping them going as long as possible – especially the cilantro as I would love one last crop!<\/p>\n

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An herb cave next to the house with the grow lights to keep the temperature above freezing.<\/p>\n

Chores, my work, the logistics of supplying my home. I can think those things through.<\/p>\n

A new family member. <\/p>\n

No thinking through.<\/p>\n

Well, in a “pie in the sky” kind of way, long ago, before the worst became real – I thought that if\/when Bear or Bob passed, I would not get another cat or dog until the remaining dog or cat passed…because of Bob’s age and Bear’s age + aversion to other 4 leggeds.<\/p>\n

And then when Bob passed and I thought about another cat, I thought I should probably get an older cat. A cat with dog experience. A quiet cat.<\/p>\n

But I didn’t do any of those things.<\/p>\n

We are living with gates and vigilance and time-splitting and training.<\/p>\n

For as long as it takes.<\/p>\n

I didn’t think much through.<\/p>\n

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I am so glad I am not in the habit of thinking things through.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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